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Yesterday I drove completly crazy. This man is the biggest ass I ever met. He kisses me, say nice words and at the weekends he drives to his girlfriend. And I´m so stupid because I write him everyday and do everything to see him.
Yesterday I was on a birthday-party when we wrote together. He was in a pub with some other collegues. He wrote I have to come to the pub too. So I went by bike, without any light on it, to the pub. We talked about work and he did in a terrible way, if he met me for the first time. After the pub closed we went all to the basement of my neighbour. We had some beer and we were all a little bit drunk. I think it was 2 o´clock in the morning when he left the basement. Two minutes later I got a message that he his standing before my door. Me stupid Cow left the basement too, so he cames to me at home. We talked some minutes till we had a wordbattle. I said to him he has to go home now. But he didn´t go home. I was so crazy and hurted so I took 6 of my sleeping pills and went to bed. He lied next to me. I think I cried a little bit, than my brain was knocked out, I slept like a little baby and haven´t any memory of the last minutes.
But this is not the end of the story. I had to go to work at 06:45 o´clock in the morning. At 09:30 o´clock somebody rang at my door. I didn´t know where I am and who I am, so I went to the door and opened this. My next boss was standing before it and asked if everthing is okay. I told her I am okay. So she leaves and I had to go to work. But I wasn´t able, I had no leggs, I wasn´t able to go. So I called my boss again and told her the truth. I´m so ashamed about this story, I think tomorrow in the morning I will go with a red head to work.
Why didn´t this fucking ass wake me up? He went at home in the morning and he had the possibility to wake me up to the right time?
I slept the hole day and had a bath. What for a fucking day, I never will wake up with a smile again.
This guy can go to hell...
