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Yesterday I suffered like a dog, how you in Germany say. I wasn´t able to thinking and eating the hole day. In the evening, after working, I opened a bottle with red wine and watched the movie "The Doors" for the 51th time. I think I will drive crazy next time. I cried a lot yesterday and now I´m looking like "Frankenstein". A girl friend told me yesterday, I have to stop writing messages to him. So I stopped this, but it isn´t easy. Because normally I have to write him every second minute that I love him so much. But I know, after a time the pain stops, I hope not so long away. Since Saturday I lost a lot of weight and my uniform is hanging around.
